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IDK.. I feel so empty inside

Post by Survivor2010 on Fri Jul 01, 2011 1:57 pm

So, in 9 days will be 1 year with out my friend Clara. She commited suicide. She was in the phone with me when she shot herself. I still can't get over that. I feel lost, I feel empty. I feel like it was my fault cause I couldn't help her. I feel worse cause it was 2 days after I miscarried my baby boy Tyler. Sad I feel so empty, I feel alone. I sometimes believe God loves to see me cry/hurt.
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Post by AshleighJoy on Sun Jul 03, 2011 1:07 am

Awwe, Kelsie!
God doesn't love to see you hurt or cry! In fact He knows exactly how many tears you cry and exactly why! I can't even imagine what it would be like to loose a friend while on the phone with them or what it'd be like to have a miscarriage let alone both within 48 hours! I'm so sorry....here if you need me but you already know that one! Text me whenever girl! <3
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Post by Survivor2010 on Sun Jul 03, 2011 5:28 pm

idk what to do, I don't how I should feel cause I lost them both. I feel like I was the cause of them both. She was on the phone and I was trying to get her to laugh. and right when I heard the gun shot I dropped the phone. I don't want to live that over. I don't want that day to come. Sad Everyday I remember her smile. I remember her laugh. Everyday it pains me to see her last message in my inbox. The last letter she wrote me in class. It hurts alot.
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Post by AshleighJoy on Sun Jul 03, 2011 5:37 pm

Just focus on the positive and get through it the best you can! Trying not to remember the last moment but the happy moments! And it most definitely wasn't your fault!
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Post by Survivor2010 on Sun Jul 03, 2011 5:40 pm

I feel like it though, cause I was on the phone with her trying my best to talk her out of it... in the end I only failed
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