is it really my best friend? (**TRIGGER WARNING**)

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is it really my best friend? (**TRIGGER WARNING**)

Post by Guest on Sat Jul 16, 2011 4:04 am

Sitting in my room feeling empty, helpless, hopeless and
kinda lost I run to the batheroom get a razor and take it apart
I grab the blade and i sit and hold it like my bestfriend has been
gone for A very long time and is finally back i just hold the blade
I know i cant cut or anything cause i wanna be free from this horrible
addiction.
it never makes me feel any better only worse.
so y do it? because when i see my own blood its like all my hurt and pain
and feelings are being released
slowly i become emotionally numb and i like it i dont have to think about
my pain and hurts i just go numb and go to bed...
i sooo want that feeling but i can get peace from god and that is way better right?
but i long to be numb and not have to deal with these things anymore...
i put the blade in the back of my phone so nobody finds it and i have it at all times
just in case i hate this thing i call my best friend i hate it... Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad Crying or Very sad

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