ok not even my mom knows this

My med dr gave me a time line. She said she wouldn't be surprised if I get hospitalized or found dead in my house in 4-6 months >.< I guess she can see perfectly thru my mask. i am like depressed to max, i mean I hide it with my humor and sarcasm. This scares me that my Psychiatrist gave me a timeline. It scares my sister who I told about it. She know what its like to have a timeline. I don't so its kinda scary. My Psych dr is probably putting me on Lithium next month. She said its that or Depakote I told her anything that doesn't require getting my blood drawn.

Well I wouldn't want you to be found dead or hospitalized. I hope the meds help.

yea me either =/ thats a scary thought to me. Cause I have told everyone I would never kill myself cause I know whats its like to lose someone so close to me through suicide and natural causes as you can say.