I've Come To A Conclusion...

So I've come to the conclusion that my life isn't going in the direction I want it to or the direction it needs to. Unfortunately because of this stupid depression I can't work with youth (which is like what I lived for, for the longest time) and I can't volunteer with things at church because my "life isn't right with God" I also feel like I have no idea how to even do that. So basically I think I'm at a cross road where I have to mkae a choice and right now that choice seems it's being made for me and depression is winning.....it really sucks I've exhausted every possible option I can the only thing I haven't done is check myself into a hospital which I'm now kinda tempted to do! *sigh*

hun do what you think is best for you! I am sorry I wasn't on yesterday I have been busy with trying to get my appointments straight. If you decided to do this take your time! Don't rush things. I am being serious. Be honest the Doctors. You don't want to go home and then go back with in the next week of going home. I will be praying for you Ashley!

Praying for you sweetheart. You do what you think is right, and I know God will guide you through it. It will be hard if you go with that decision, however, you are such a strong young lady, you can get through anything<3 Prayers for you love. Love you tons

Yea...idk :s

Praying sweetheart. Pray about it as well. God will give you the answer.

I'm not really into the whole God aspect of life right now.

God is not just an aspect of life hunn. It's all or nothing. You gotta make the choice. Even if you feel like you don't have enough to offer, God assures us that He can use faith as small as a mustard seed. Praying for you. Look to God, Christ is the only answer. And God loves you so much. Look to Him, don't try to hide or run away. He loves you with an everlasting, unfailing love that we can't even begin to fathom.

Hugs. Press on.

I don't really have much faith if any right now. I don't really know about God anymore and have no idea what to think etc.

You know where that comes from Ashley. Satan. He wants to take you away from God and doubt Him. Fight back girl. I'm telling you right now, if it wasn't for my relationship with God, I'd be in MAJOR trouble! Don't give up!

Also, I'd love to talk with you about your relationship with God and growing in Him like you mentioned above. I'm here for you and don't want you to miss out on the greatest relationship you could EVER have. If you ever have any questions about your relationship with Him or how to grow in Him, private message me and we'll work through it.

I don't think I even believe in God anymore......

That's a really sad place to be. I'm sorry for you and I'll pray that god would speak to your heart and that u would be receptive to him.

God never speaks to me that's why I just don't know anymore. My life is and has been falling apart so long and even when I try and trust in Him, it still falls apart usually more than before, doesn't make sense if you ask me.

Hey Hun! How are things going ?

I don't know that it's really about not believing in God.. I think it's just a lot of separation and anxiety that you have a hard time believing God can help you with. I'm in that same spot. But He is always there. And when you honestly set your sights on Him, calmness does come.