plz help..

I don't even kpnow.. how to describe how i feel. or why i keep going up and down and around with my emotions. i think that i feel one way, the next minute i feel another. my son wasa bused,, and i didnt even know.. he passed 4 months ago bcuz of that.. theres so much police stuff going on and my head keeps feeling like itll explode and i keep going after whatever it is that makes me happy,. and ive hurt a lot of ppl bcuz of it.. especially the one that matters most to me.. have any of you gone to counseling had it helped at all/ should i do it

It probably would do you some good hun. It sounds like you are going through a lot and if nothing else it will give you someone to get out all those thoughts and emotions.

i have made a counseling appt for monday.. im so scared to go

hun. my experiances with counselling have been mixed.. my first counselor and i didnt get on. but i didnt open up. and it didnt work. but i think if i had opened up fully it would have probably helped... the 2nd person i saw for some help wasnt plesant... i didnt like her.. the end. BUT the lady im seeing now... she is wounderful. we get on really well and i find it easy to talk to her. the 1st 4 sessions wernt easy, but now in facing 3 weeks without counselling and im anxious about it. but my view on counselling,.... if you are open and honest about things... and you get on with your counsellor, it has a much better chance of working... love, i will be praying for you tomorrow.. and tonight. and will continue to pray for you... sending you lots of hugs and prayers!!