Reasons to stop

Some time last year while I was in counseling I put together a binder. In my binder I put a few list of distractions, my impulse control logs and other odds and end things that I thought might help me fight the ugre to harm and to in time over come it all together. It hit me today as I was looking around my binder that I did not have a list of reasons why I wanted to stop self-harming.As I started to come up with a list I thought that it would be cool to see what other peoples reasons were.So I ask why do/did you want to stop??

My reasons (the short version)~ My neices,a few friends,God,my self and my some day husband and children and the children that I will be working with

I have stopped but before I stopped I wanted to stop because I was tired of being miserable, I knew that it wasn't pleasing to God, and that I knew that it wasn't getting me anywhere worthwhile. I wanted to know the joy of the Lord, and cutting was stopping me from knowing what true joy was and total surrender to God. I also wanted to stop because I was sick of hiding from family and friends. I would not only hide my cuts and scars but my emotions. I wanted to be able to freely express myself in a healthy way.

I wanted to stop for my brother and sisters because if I was hurting myself to help cope with everything going on, then that would make it okay for them to do the same. I don't think I could live with myself if any of them were hurting themselves. Another reason is because I was tired of wearing long sleeves in warm weather. I have all these cool band t-shirts, but I couldn't wear any of them becasue I always had cuts on my arms. My last reason is because I knew that it was what was keeping me so far from God. I always knew in the back of my mind that self-injury was the wall between God and I, but it never bothered me to the point of doing something to fix it up until two or three months ago.